before i flip

hy must I feel like this.
the feeling of hatred and betray?
with so much confusion,
none of my feelings seem to want to stay.
My friends just tell me to leave it be.
Let it all blow away.
My heart, its split.
To the pit of my stumache,
It makes me sick.
MY HEART, MY MIND
TICK. TICK. TICK.
dont know how much more i can take.
Before i BREAK.
Before i FLIP.